becoming sandy
Sharing what I am learning, unlearning and relearning as I navigate my way through a midlife unraveling and awakening, becoming the woman I was meant to be all along.
When I was little, I was super creative and loved to write. Many children are artists, singers, authors, actors, soccer players and scientists, until they are told that they are not. From what I’ve observed, it happens a lot with creative interests. You’re eleven and you’re singing a right fancy tune in the kitchen and someone comes along and tells you, “you’re just like me…can’t carry a tune in a bucket.” Or maybe you’re 16 and your English teacher openly criticizes your poems and stories in front of the whole class, insinuating that they are just not that good. You are not that good. You reach a point, where the things that you think you can do, you don’t dare try, just in case you’re wrong. I thought about starting a blog over a decade ago, then kept putting it off worried about all of the what ifs. Over the past several years, I have doubted whether or not to begin, thinking that I may have missed some some fantasized success window. More recently, though, I am believing that I have a story to share. No one can share my story, but me. This is scary! What if my insights are so different and obscure that no one can relate? What if no one wants to read it? What if only my mom reads it? What if my mom doesn't read it? What if... What if... What if... What if my words reach someone who needs to know that our lives, while different, aren't so different after all? What if there is someone out there who wonders if anyone cares? What if there is a person who thinks that they are all alone and that no one else could possibly understand? What if they are just waiting for someone to speak first? I’ll go first.
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About the AuthorSandy is a parent educator, enneagram aficionado, conscious parenting advocate, self trained and proclaimed home chef, and mother of 4 amazing kids. Archives
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